Thoughts about Writing · 8 August 2020

I am thinking out loud here as I have some thoughts about writing. (I wonder if they are at all coherent.)

I have been so focused on other projects lately that I nearly forgot my blog post for the week. Not really. I think about it quite a bit.

“I will get to it tomorrow.”
“I think I already have a post ready.”
“I wonder if anybody would really care if I missed a week.”
“I suppose I should get something written.”
“I wonder if anybody actually read it.”

Oh I have other thoughts too.

I sometimes wonder who I think I am that I would blog each week thinking people might really read what I have written. I wonder whether I really am an honest to goodness writer. I wonder if there is something that might be a better use of my time. And then I realize the truth of the saying. Once you make the decision, the decision makes you.

I made the decision to be a writer a long time ago. Then, it took a long time of writing just when I felt like it to realize that being a writer was much more than writing when you felt inspired. So I felt like I had made it when I started writing every day. “Woo hoo! I am a real writer. I write every day.”

Now, I know the truth of the matter. “Big whoop. You write every day. It only matters to you.”

But try as I might, I cannot stop writing. Much to the chagrin of the internet poop monitors. (If such people exist.)

I cannot stop writing because, like I already said, once you make the decision, the decision makes you. And I made the decision to write every day a long time ago. Which has produced some interesting results. I have lots of words on the internet. I have some books on Amazon. I have more books in the queue waiting for final edits, covers, formatting, or whatever else they need to get out there. I also have some flotsam and jetsam that will never see the light of day. So whether I want to continue to write every day, I do not have much choice anymore. I made the choice long ago and I am seeing it through to its logical conclusion.

I actually wonder what the logical conclusion of writing everyday is. I am hoping that it means people read my stuff. My blog or my books.

I used to think that the logical conclusion of writing was that I would be a commercial success in the writing business. That I would actually make money. But when I think about it, that does not matter much to me anymore. Sure, I would like to make money at my writing, but that is not what matters. What matters is that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. What I believe God wants me to do. Even if that means that hundreds of thousands of my words sit idly on the internet gathering digital cobwebs in a musty website.

Well, I am not sure if I wrote anything today. I did give myself a little pep talk though. And I also have at least two topics for the future. I guess it is okay to just think out loud about writing.

© 2020 Michael T. Miyoshi

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Summer Is Almost Here · 1 August 2020

It is August and I keep thinking that summer is almost here.

I am not going to blame it all on global climate change, but there is something strange about the weather this year. Actually, there is lots strange about this year in general, and the weather is probably the least of our worries. Depending on how much you think it really is global climate change that has made our summer seem like a mild spring so far. At least in the Pacific Northwest.

I do not like to place blame. It does not do any good. It is unproductive. Especially, when it has to do with people and situations. “He said she said,” and all that jazz. Blaming somebody does nothing to correct the situation. Besides, it presupposes that the solution lies only with the person or thing or situation being blamed. Which may or may not be true. But it rules out any other possibilities for resolution.

I know. The last paragraph was mostly to do with people and the mess we create. Which may be (and probably is) the main cause of global climate change. But if I was the blaming type, I might blame COVID-19 for our cool summer. And maybe even all of our climate change.

I know it sounds strange, but just think about it. If it was not for COVID-19, there would be more vehicles on the streets. Which means more fuel being burned. Which means more natural resources being used to produce whatever source of fuel people are using (yes, that includes electric vehicles). And more resources being used means more heat being produced. Since people are staying home, there is less heat being generated which makes the summer cooler. Right?

Okay. Probably not the greatest logic there. In fact, people would argue that COVID-19 is doing the globe a huge favor by keeping people off the streets and away from each other. People do use less resources when they are at home. At least less of their own. But there are still deliveries that need to be made. And boxes to be made. There are plenty of activities going on that keep the economy going and the climate changing activities moving. Albeit, at a slower pace. Probably.

I do know one thing. I have used my computers as heating devices lately. When the temperature outside is lower than normal (which has seemingly been all summer so far here in the Pacific Northwest), I just huddle around my computers and soak in their radiating heat. Ah. The hum of hard drives and the heat of processing warms me to my core.

Not really. But they do remind me that staying home also means more internet usage and more data storage. Those huge data centers are pumping out heat all day and all night. Yes, using electricity uses resources. Sometimes, even non-renewable resources. So no matter who we are, we are using natural resources. Period. If you eat and breathe and just live your life, you are using resources. And you are contributing to global climate change. Maybe.

Well, I am not one to worry too much. Or blame too much. We all need to do what we all need to do. We need to live and breathe and eat. We need to use our resources wisely. And we need to figure out how to be good stewards of the earth. And of our time on this planet. Yes, we need to wisely use that most precious commodity of all – time.

Okay. I went a long way from where I started, but that is okay. I am still just wondering when summer will get here. I know it is coming. I am pretty sure that summer is almost here.

© 2020 Michael T. Miyoshi

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No POST · 25 July 2020

My computer broke a while back. It would not POST.

For those of you not in the know. POST is an acronym that stands for Power On Self Test. (I had to look it up too.) It is that beep you hear when you first turn on your PC. (I am not sure if it is that sound you hear when you first turn on your Mac though.) Anyway. (If I put in any more parenthetic thoughts, this could get long and difficult to read.) As I was saying before I interrupted myself. My computer would not POST not long ago. In other words, my computer was broken.

Thankfully, I had nothing to fear. I had another computer to fall back on. Actually, we were sitting around (not much else to do when you are quarantined) when I was lamenting the loss of our computer. The boys said that we probably had at least 2 computers each. (They recognized that phones are indeed little computers.) And with tablets, we might even have 3 computers each. Anyway, I was just glad that I had scavenged a computer from a friend of mine. It is a beast of a machine. Four large hard drives (or at least they used to be considered large), four fans, and a huge case. Lots of lights and stuff too. Very cool. It used to be his gaming computer, but he was getting rid of it, so he gave it to me. Yes, I am a scrounger.

The problem was that the Beast was broken. Not down for the count, but I had not turned it on for quite some time. I knew what the problem was, or at least I thought I knew, but I had not fixed it yet. I had been meaning to (after all, it was going to replace the older computer), but had just not gotten around to it yet. Well, it was finally time to fix the problem. So I did. There was a pesky hard drive that was not behaving well with the other components in the box. So I gave it a time out. Turns out that the Beast would turn on with it connected. At least the last few times. But I decided to leave the hard drive in a permanent time out. Albeit, still in the computer.

The problem with fixing computers is that even when you think you know what the problem is, it takes time to diagnose and fix said problems. Which I did, but it took a couple days. And what does a writer do when his tech guy is fixing his computers? He still writes. However he can. Fortunately, I was able to get one computer up and running and the other one got up and running too. Strange, but wonderful. So now, I have two computers that work. And I am writing again. I did not miss too many beats. But I did sweat it out when I thought that maybe I lost a bunch of my data.

Well, to make a short story a little longer, I think all my data is intact. I now have two computers that work. (Albeit, the old one will just be a backup.) And I am back up and writing without much of a hitch.

One day, I might get a shiny new computer. But for now, I am just glad I get to hear that little beep in the morning. I get to hear my computer POST. Believe it or not, that beep is music to my ears.

© 2020 Michael T. Miyoshi

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